I am music...and I write the songs.

Day 20

Do we have any fanilows out there? (Barry Manilow fans) I chose that subject heading 1. because my dad is a huge fanilow and 2. music has been very therapeutic for all of us lately. 

Today in physical therapy, Papa was a little tired, and not helping much, when Mama said,"Let's turn on some music!" So the Rocky theme was played and Papa rose to the challenge. :^)

Music has also been used to calm us down...sometimes Papa has some big scary coughs that stress ALL of us out, so we turn a little music on and we all feel so much better. 

All in all, Papa is doing alright today. It is hard to kind of do a "blanket-sweep" statement about his condition, because it is so varying hour by hour. The good hours we soak up and try to take a few pictures....the rougher hours we take minute by minute until the worst is over and we can sit in our chairs and ease the mood with some Baer family humor.

I have been thinking a lot about patience lately. Here is the thing, the Baer family has many qualities, but one thing we all struggle with is patience....we all just like to get 'er done, and we usually can...but this experience is just SO out of our hands, we are all learning how to be patient in an incredible way. I also thought about faith, faith is trusting in God. Patience is trusting in His timing. Some hours God wants Papa to cough real rough, or be super fidgety. Other hours, He lets Papa be very alert, letting his personality shine through and smiles to form on his lips. We are learning about faith AND patience. I don't think you can have one without the other. We know that all will be well one day, that day is not TODAY but we know that day WILL come.

We love our Papa, and we are so grateful that he is choosing to stick with us. I can't imagine how this battle has been for HIM. HE is the one who has been so sick, and HE is the one who is struggling to communicate and function. He is learning faith and patience too. 

So all of us are learning together. Just like we always have. For ever, for always, no matter what.

Love you guys,

The Baers